No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. Romans 8:37
I have struggled with low self-esteem most of my life. It laid dormant for quite a while, until I stood on the brink of a college degree.
Here I stood, in the doorway, with my hand tightly gripping the knob when a flood of reasons why I probably would not pass this class.
I have done the work.
I have studied.
Stayed up late.
Met with a tutor.
Contacted friends who had already completed a similar class or above to be on guard for a SOS call.
However, this class has been rough. It has been very difficult to learn the second level of American Sign Language in an online class.
I think I have rewinded these videos so many times that the screen itself was crying in agony.
When I was a child, I felt the anxiety of passing the dreaded math class. Yet, now when success was so close, it seemed so far. I felt that it was too good to be true. Too good for me. I must not deserve MORE!
What the what!
I am a child of the Most Highs God! He has promised me the desire of my heart if I would delight myself in him.
Satan the deceiver was having a field day and I had to kick him to the curve.
He knows who I am!
I am MORE than a conqueror. Not because of who I am, but because of who Christ is.
He conquered the grave. Because of his victory, I claim that I am victorious. I Corinthians 15:55-57
So here, I stand again. In confidence. With my head held high.
No one is giving me that degree. I am not going to take it from anyone. I have earned it. It is a merit award.
I have met all the requirements and God is faithful. He will see it to pass.
“Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commandments.” Deuteronomy 7:9
P.S. I passed my final!